June 8, 2008. There are pivotal moments in life when everything changes. You know what I’m talking about. An event that frames everything else. There’s the before it happened, and the after. Sometimes, whatever it was is joyous. Other times, it’s heartbreaking. 12 years ago was one of those life changing days for me. It was by far, the hardest day of my life. On June 8, 2008, the person I’ve loved and depended on since before I was even born took her last breath on Earth. I had to say goodbye to the only person that I knew would always love me. When Mama left, it shook my entire world and my sense of security. Unconditional love is rare. It should be something that every child gets from their parents. Sadly, that’s not the way it is. Some people never experience the absolute and pure love that my Mom gave me. I’m so thankful that I had her. I knew how special it was, but honestly, I don’t think I truly appreciated it until it was gone. It was in my darkest moments without her, that I finally comprehended that the only unending and unchanging relationship I will ever have is with my Creator and Savior. When I felt alone, afraid, lost, and hopeless... there was Jesus. Grief is a powerful and crippling feeling, but my God is stronger. When I’m weary from fighting the battles, He’s there to remind me that He already won and that He did that for me. There are no words to ever say how grateful I am that He chose Mama for me... and that He loved us enough to make a way for us to be together again forever. Mostly, I am overwhelmed by the fullness of His love for me and His constant companionship. I don’t deserve it and I can’t understand it, but I don’t think I would’ve survived this long without it. In my happiest memories, there was Jesus. During the storms and devastation, there was Jesus. What a blessing to never have to walk alone!
If you’ve never experienced unconditional love, there is Jesus. If you need someone you can count on, there is Jesus. Whatever you need, He is the answer. If you don’t know Him, I would be honored to introduce you.
